Sunday, January 27, 2008

the morning

i can't fucking take this shit anymore i don't know what to do. 10 hours ago i was content, making jokes, then i fell asleep. i wake up to this fucking bullshit and want to scrap every plan i made today just to sit here and cry about it.

i wish i was going to New York, i want to leave.

I don't know what you expect from me.

It's bullshit that I'm not good enough though, fuck that. I am better than this shit, i am fucking better than this. I'm not fighting for your attention anymore.

"You can leave me on corner,
where you found me,
I'm not for sale anymore."

its not bright eyes, but it fits, fuck off.
oh my god. i've turned into jealous needy girlfriend, kill me.


Edit://
i thought today couldn't get any worse.
my parents have planned a huge camping trip to Mt.Shasta with a whole bunch of family from a bunch of other states, on the exact dates of my 18th birthday. I definately don't want to be stuck with a bunch of family in a cabin on the biggest birthday of them all. I even questioned my mom and she said, "well us and all of them weren't thinking about your birthday when we planned this." Maybe they could at least reschedule? No, their stupid fucking vacation comes before my 18th birthday. I'm not going. I'm going to stay here and rage until i can't see anymore.

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