The Suit

Ain't it cute!

The Tattoo pt. 5

Scott Harrison at Atlas Tattoo kicks so much ass it's ridiculous.

The Eating Habits

I have to drink peppermint tea at 2am because I am feeling so nauseous.
I've been eating so poorly ever since we got back from California. I
haven't been eating fast food either, at all! Josh just makes food that
is fucking delicious that also happens to be horrible for me. I always
feel sick to my stomach, sometimes really light-headed, and it's getting
really annoying.

Blerg, I hate and love food.

The Insider

I've been reading "Get In the Van" by Henry Rollins about his tours/life with Black Flag. I've also read "Smile, You're Traveling" by Mr. Rollins. Just by chance, Josh and I decided to watch "The New Guy" on netflix last night and Henry was in the movie as the prison warden! I was so weird to see him in a movie because I feel like I know him on a personal level after having a glimpse into his mind with all those journals he's published. I really look up to him as a writer and as a person, he's extremely courageous and intelligent.

Getting a black flag tattoo on the 25th. I feel like the bars have just been a trendy tattoo to have at shows these days, but I legitimately love them. The lyrics, Ginn's guitar sound, Keith Morris, Henry Rollins. So many great things have come out of that band.

I've been really frustrated with people telling me what to do and judging me lately. Whether it's my mom, or Josh, or Jake, or my Grandparents. I'm getting really exhausted. You all say you love me, so why won't you just let me be happy and stubborn?

My Dearest Joshua

when I feel like I've got nothing else, I've got you.

The Missing Posts

I've been posting constantly with pictures from my phone, but apparently they aren't making it here.

Shit has been rough the last couple of days. I quit my job, i got to that breaking point and I know that I have more options than that. I would rather be poor and happy than a little less poor and miserable.

Been having weird dreams that are really vivid every single night, some good and some bad. Received my tax return of 600 dollars, Josh and I decided to blow some of it on tattoos again. His is going to be more ridiculous than mine. We're going to Scott Harrison at Atlas Tattoo again, he has done great work on both of us before, so I'm looking forward to it.

Josh's parents are visiting from New York on Monday, I'm more scared than excited.

The New Deal

Everyday I think more and more about moving to New York, part of me is super excited and the other half is hesitant. It's really far away first of all, and the second thing I'm worried about is finding a job. I won't be able to take much with me so I'll have to sell a bunch of things. It wasn't until I moved to Portland did I realize how many childlike things I still own. I'm trying to grow up, I just don't want to.

I've been looking up things about Albany and it looks like it'd be a lot of fun to live there. Come September I'll be out of school, and it seems like this would be a step forward in my life.


The news around the house is that we'll be moving into a new place way earlier than we expected, March 15th instead of April 15th. I haven't even started packing yet!

The Relationship Shit

I'm getting really sick of the whole "you're wrong, I'm always right"
bullshit, really fucking fast. I hate relationships I hate being
involved in something I can't just walk away from and forget about.
Fuck people. All people.