the turn

today started out so great and then it took a turn for one of the worst days of the month, it definately deserves a post of its own.

i went to the pseudo gym in Pacifica and took a "kick boxing" class with my mom as a favor because she didn't want to go alone. I thought i was going to be punching things while i envisioned my film teacher's face, but it was pretty much a middle aged bi curious redheaded mullet woman teaching us the dance moves my grandma taught me when i was 6. i honestly haven't laughed that much at my uncoordinated completely ungraceful self, in a long time. i guess i'm more of a gentle flexible yoga person than i am a punch throwing ass kicking person, in a way it could benefit me. Anyways, it was totally ridiculous and half the time i was off timing or laughing too hard to pay attention. It was weird, its like the house arrested mothers get off of that ridiculous crap, they were totally into it.

came home and Joe was in a bad mood as always, we noticed when we pulled up that the garbage cans were out so we know Nina had been in our rooms taking out trash. No matter how clean my room may be, she'll complain to Joe how irresponsible and disgusting i am because i have clothes on the floor. Then he'll be mad and complain to my mom who complains to me, and by this point everybody's pissed off when she could've just upped her maturity level and told her sob story to me. So now I'm angry cause everyone in this house is a whiny 12 year old, and not one of them has the guts to come up to me and tell me to clean my room. Obviously I'm the one here in the wrong because I've got clothes on the ground yet we're stilling living in Nina and Jose's house because you can't give up your precious dream of your business ever doing good again, and maybe if we didn't live here I'd have a place to put these ever threatening clothes. Yet I'm the one with a job, and if i don't say so myself, an excellent GPA (for my standards of course, read the last post!).

On top of all this i'm worried about Jake and i want him to get better and take care of his war wounds.

fuck everyone being extremely childish today.