the groundbreaking

I went to Justice last night, the entire night was incredible and life changing.

It was packed inside, at first it didn't seem like many people were there but they started piling in when Diplo started. The entire room was baffled by Fancy and didn't know how to react to them. It was seriously The Darkness reincarnated. Diplo went on and I had a blast, the people I was with left to take care of Beth because she felt sick. I felt bad, but I stayed in the crowd because I figured there was nothing I could do. Erin was there with me for a little while, but then we left to find them and we couldn't so I went back into the crowd. Before we left I had been dancing next to this guy who was really cute and was smiling at me, so when I went back in I found him again, and within three minutes i felt a hand on my hip and i was like WHAT IS GOING ON. So i kept dancing, and then i felt another hand on my other hip, and then I realized that the cute guy who had been smiling at me, was now dancing behind me!

I danced with him during Diplo, and then out of nowhere he just started kissing me! Meanwhile, all of these thoughts are racing through my mind like, I don't even know this guy, how old is he? where is he from? what is his name!? Then I stopped thinking, and kept dancing and smiling because I knew it didn't matter. After Diplo I left with him to get some water and I tried to find my friends. I found Keith and told him I had met someone to dance with and I'd see them later, I was sort of intoxicated so of course I made a big deal out of it. I know he was just looking out for me, but I could take care of myself. I went back and found the guy again, I later found out his name was Rohad, and he was 19. He had dark skin, dark hair and green eyes, he was so adorable. We danced and made out through all of Justice, hahaha. I started to feel funny so I went to find Keith, I stayed with them for a little while, next to us these two guys started literally fucking each other and it was extremely awkward.

I had told Rohad that I would be back, but a half hour had passed, and I couldn't find him anywhere. I thought I spotted him across the concourse, so I ran over to the other side, but it wasn't him. I went back towards the crowd and I spotted him sitting down right in plain view! We danced for the rest of Justice and when it was over he asked me to come to the Popscene after party but I couldn't go because I'm not yet 18. I didn't really know what to do, so when I said goodbye i just said, "I guess I'll just see you around." He kissed me goodbye and walked away! It was the weirdest thing! No exchange of numbers, or emails, or anything! He looked sad, but I didn't know how to go about things like this!

The entire night let me realize that I have a huge life ahead of me and I need to stop and enjoy all the crazy things, like Rohad, when they come along. Could you imagine what would've happened if I was still in a relationship? Rohad would've never happened. I am happy to be free, and plan to be so for a really long time.

I will probably never see him again, but maybe that's the joy in it, right?