"i never thought this would be your song. fuck, i never thought this would be my song. but thieves don't write songs, their victims write for them. i've never fucking said it before. i've never fucking meant it more. fuck you. fuck all of you."
Killing The Dream 'Thirty Four Seconds'
Killing The Dream 'Thirty Four Seconds'
My entire family can go fuck themselves if they think I deserve to be constantly treated like shit just because their lives are a living hell. They should know at the age of 38 that your life is what you fucking make it. I'd kill myself before I'd let any of my relationships even come close to resembling the way the treat each other. I can't wait until I load my boxes into the van and never look back, I'll never cry a single fucking tear for all the hurtful words they've said to me.
When my mom and him got married he gave this big speech at the reception about how he wasn't just "gaining a wife but also a daughter to love" for the rest of his life. I didn't believe it then and I don't believe it now. I remember when I was about 15, and we had an argument over something ridiculous that led to my mom telling my step-dad if she knew he'd act this way towards me before the wedding, she would've never married him, and his response was, "you knew I was changing." I will never forget the times he's said things like this to me.
I sometimes lie to family who I haven't seen in a while when they ask me how I'm doing, i always answer "good," but now I'm going to start being fucking honest. When my real dad starting talking to me online i told him about how my step-dad is so 'great' just so he'd believe that I did alright without him around for 16 years. I lied, he's a total fucking dick who stole my mom away from me and turned her into an evil bitch. I needed my dad, I was only two years old, I need him around. And I still do, but its gone past the point of reconciliation, he's a mystery in my life I feel like he's not even real.
When I'm gone, I'm gone, and I'm never setting a foot back in this fucking house or this fucking town.
When my mom and him got married he gave this big speech at the reception about how he wasn't just "gaining a wife but also a daughter to love" for the rest of his life. I didn't believe it then and I don't believe it now. I remember when I was about 15, and we had an argument over something ridiculous that led to my mom telling my step-dad if she knew he'd act this way towards me before the wedding, she would've never married him, and his response was, "you knew I was changing." I will never forget the times he's said things like this to me.
I sometimes lie to family who I haven't seen in a while when they ask me how I'm doing, i always answer "good," but now I'm going to start being fucking honest. When my real dad starting talking to me online i told him about how my step-dad is so 'great' just so he'd believe that I did alright without him around for 16 years. I lied, he's a total fucking dick who stole my mom away from me and turned her into an evil bitch. I needed my dad, I was only two years old, I need him around. And I still do, but its gone past the point of reconciliation, he's a mystery in my life I feel like he's not even real.
When I'm gone, I'm gone, and I'm never setting a foot back in this fucking house or this fucking town.
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