im so angry that my mom can't understand what it feels like being me in high school. she doesnt understand why i have no friends there, because she was one of those stupid people in high school, and i would've hated her had i gone to school with her. maybe next year wont be so bad? i will just read at lunch, go to my classes, attempt to learn something, talk. I'm working on being more outgoing and less shy to new people. Im pessimistic and it might be the main cause as to why im so pissed off. I shouldn't be though. I have great people and great things in my life. I have Candace, shes always there for me, and our raging hangouts are full of enjoyment and we are constantly laughing. Keith is just great, i can't explain it, but theres just this connection that just clicks and its weird because i feel so different around him than i do anyone else. Some people need to exaggerate or lie to make myself seem more interesting, but i can just be me. I'm almost at that point where im starting to learn that life as myself might not be so bad, and if some day (god forbid) he decides that I am not who he wants to be with then, I'll just go on living with it. I'm pretty comfortable with being me right about now. I might not have the greatest goals or opportunities being handed to me as i should, if i had just worked a little harder, but you know, i've got common sense and i have a personality. I have skills and talents that will take me somewhere some day, whatever it may be.
everything's okay.
currently listening to: Mirah-Telephone Wires
" Lean in close and speak to me low
Tell me things you want me to know
'Cause I want to be the one you need to lean to
Speak to me low"
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