There is supposed to be no love greater than the love of family. While some days I think this is true, other times, like today, I don't. My family is trying to control my life, and today has been the breaking point. I moved 600 miles away from my Mom but she still controls me. I moved into my grandparents house thinking they'd be a huge help, giving me a place to stay while I save up money to move, but my Grandpa insists on tearing me apart emotionally every time I'm around and even when I'm not. Apparently when I speak, ears are closed so when I told him I still planned on moving in January at least six times, he didn't hear it. I told my mom I still planned on moving even though I was coming up to Portland, and she didn't hear it either.
I am so fucking fed up with having to hear about school. I HAVE NO MONEY TO GO TO SCHOOL SO I AM WORKING TO SAVE SOME. I don't know how much more clear I can make it. The thing I am focused on right now is being happy, I want to be around my friends who make me happy, I want to have a reason to wake up in the morning.
So now my grandpa pretty much wants me to go to school or leave, I have $124.53, and no place to go. I have never been more angry than I am today, I'm beyond the point of crying all i want to do is break everything I look at. I feel betrayed and stranded, i don't know where to go from here.
I'm leaving for New Mexico to visit on November 4th, nor my Grandpa or anyone else is fucking stopping me. The prices have gone down too.
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