the wild

Last night I watched Into the Wild, and I must say it was one of the most moving movies I've seen all year. I cried through the entire thing, I can relate to Alex/Chris in so many ways, besides the living in the wilderness thing. I guess you could compare it to moving around so much, all the people I've met, yet I've left almost all of them behind and only talk to one person out of all the places, and that is Jake.
A lot of people found it selfish for Chris to leave his family and not call, but all he was trying to do was find happiness in himself. Many people are focusing too much on how it made his parents feel, rather than how they made him feel, which is why he chose to leave in the first place.

I thought house-sitting was going to amazing, so much time to myself, i can do whatever I want. My sister came to sleepover last night and when she left this morning I was so incredibly sad. Boston is a long way away. I thought that this is what I wanted, to be alone from everyone else, but what I need is to be constantly around someone.

My brain is whacked, I can't decide what to do next. I don't want to stay here any longer.