The Turn Around, Maybe

Its hard for me to be in relationships, I guess. Some how I always end up being a bitch even if things in life are going my way for once. I just feel like I am wasting time. Josh feel like I am getting tired of him because I am starting to do things on my own again. I'm starting to figure out my surroundings and I want to explore them on my own sometimes. Is it that much trouble to want to be alone?

I, as you may know, am a very excitable person. I daydream constantly and I get worked up (good and bad) about the tiniest little things. Thats just the way I am. It's really hard to be with someone who is only excited when good things happen to them.

I am ready to come out of this fucking horribly depressing cocoon I've spent the last 19 years in, and no boy is going to keep me from it.

The Good News, Finally

FINALLY! After all this time i have happy news to deliver. I am finally getting my car on the road this tuesday, Graboids played an awesome first show at Oddfellows last saturday, and I am raking in the dough.

I did my taxes, i get 800 back. FUCK YES.

The Graboids played an impromptu show at J Krak's Sweet 16x2 party. I drank way too much, and fucking went for it all. I am very proud us! We are recording the demo very very soon.

I am working all the time but its easy and fun, I seem to be making a lot of money very quickly. When i get my taxes back I'm going to pay off Josh's parents for the move and get a tattoo! Then i can begin saving for our apartment which we can get also very very soon.

Everything is easy right now! Can't wait for everything to fall apart again..

The New Work

Cream puffs I made at the new work!

My new job is going really well, I make sandwiches, take orders, clean up, and hang out. I am learning how to run my own business by working at these tiny places. The fancy restaurant I wait at on sundays is tghe best place I've ever worked. I did the dessert menu for their new years ever dinner, and they decided to keep me on in the front of the house just until summer when I can bake and eventually bartend. I'm pretty excited to make some good money.

The restaurant was named one of the 25 best farm-to-table restaurants in the country, and its amazing that everyone who makes it happen is under the age of 26. I love the food industry, you learn something new at every place you work, everyone does it differently.

This will also be good experience for New York City moving time at the end of summer. It's cool to learn all these different jobs in the restaurant, I get to work a (sandwich) line, I wait tables, I get to be chef.

I'm thankful the job situation is finally settled. I have a routine now, which is weird, but I still get to stay out late every night. I don't mind working on the weekends, because it doesn't matter what day of the week it is, we still drink heavily.

Red Stripe is my fuckin' dawg.
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The Break

Josh and I decided to take a break from smokin' dat green, and we're sort of sticking to it. I'm not as sleepy I guess.

Tonight was an excellent Graboids practice despite the PA mystery and having to go buy a new microphone. We have a total of 9 songs now, and we're playing two covers. Our songs are short so it will be nice to fit so many songs in our first set. I hope people like us, shit.

Once our recordings are done we will start a MySpace Music page so everyone can hear a few songs.(Despite your nasty comments I happen to enjoy this style of music so check your fucking face).

I wrote a song about pizza and another one about hating straight edge nazis. The subjects vary, on a quite large scale, and the lyrics are all crap. Its hard to fit brilliance inside of a single minute of music that sounds like it's on fast forward. Darby Crash manages to do this extremely well and that is one reason why the Germs are/were fucking great. If you don't believe me read the lyrics to Land of Treason.

Having this blog makes me hate myself.
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